The Suspended Disbelief Archive
Edit: June 2013 - In going over the site, readying for the re-launch and moving these songs into the archivem I am struck by how much I miss my music. I was natuarlly gifted. So said my teachers and other musicians. The best compliments were well established performers I knew asking if they could do some of my songs. (I always declined since so many were so deeply personal). But now, in reading through old lyrics... I miss my music. I remember snippets of melody or a chord progression or a guitar riff or string arrangement. Sadly, I never wrote down most of the music from about 2000 onwards because I was so certain I'd never stop playing. But I did. Someone I once cared for, someone I trusted, told me I had no talent. And considering who they were to me, I believed them. I wonder if I can get it back?
Once upon a time, I was a musician. I suppose I still am. At the age of 10, I decided I was an artist and started short stories, plays and lyrics. At the age of 12 I got my first guitar and began composing music for those lyrics.
Through my teenage years and into my mid-20s I probably sang and played an average of ten hours a day, seven days a week. I considered myself a songwriter first, a musician second and a singer third. I was good and getting better and there were enough flashes of brilliance to allow me to earn a living for a few years in the mid-1990s.
And then the passion died. I recaptured it a few times, tried to put a couple bands together and made a few false starts but with one exception, one incredible inspiration in my early 30's, I no longer write songs, sing, play or perform. I pick up a guitar maybe once a month, for a few minutes but it just isn't there anymore. And I'm not sure why.
Over the years, I've written well over 100 songs and a select few, at least the lyrics, are presented here. I've also included "notes" at the end, just to try to give an idea of what the song would sound like. I suppose, to that end, I should also say my three biggest musical influences were the Beatles, Blue Rodeo and the Alan Parson's Project.
Lyrical Selections from Church Benches and Rain 2005 - 2006